some things are stupid

caution: sensitive stuff following.

death is stupid. i mean, really really dumb. everyone has to die, yeah i get that, but it's stupid that no one knows what happens when you do.

euphemisms for death: are equally dumb. personally, i am upset more by hearing "passed away" than i am by hearing "died". and that's why euphemisms are dumb.

so is grief, basically. in my opinion and experience, people don't grieve for the departed. they grieve for themselves. for all we know, the one who died is happy-as-larry enjoying themself in heaven for something. or maybe they've just ceased to exist, in which case it doesn't matter because they can't feel anything anyway. the point is, that you don't grieve for the one who died. you grieve for all the things that you will be missing. because that person makes you happy, and if they aren't around, that's one source of happiness you no longer have. you grieve for the opportunities you passed up, opportunities to get to know them better, have fun with them, appreciate something they love. grief is selfish. hence, it is dumb.

but then, i hate all things selfish. i'm not trying to say that i'm completely selfless, because that's not true. it's just selfish things are dumb.

like death. if you die, you've taken yourself away and left me on my own. you selfish bastard.