hey. i told someone that i'd try and explain something, so here is my attempt at explaining.
first of all, i know i look fine. i'm not stupid, i don't want an eating disorder. but there is a huge difference between looking fine, and looking good. i want to look good.
like, nothing beats the high you get when you know you've lost weight, when you step on the scales and you're a kilo lighter than last week. when you try on those pants that fit you perfect when you got them, and are now a little too big. when you go a whole day without eating. when you can see your bones.
but it sucks to high heaven when you've gained. when you've just stuffed your face with junk that you really didn't need. when you see yourself in the mirror, and can see all your flab. when people touch you and you know they can feel the pudge. when you see a beautiful thin girl, and know that you're not her. when you know that no matter how hard you try, you just don't have the self control to not eat that chocolate cake.
and that's why i care so much.
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You're not talking about looking good, or fine, or looks at all. You're talking about control. That's not cool
And you do look good. lol When I said fine, i meant it the way black people say it (funny that). You were meant to hear it in italics. You look fine =D
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